I am too tired and my body is too run down to deal with BIG things right now, Lord. I know, I know, I asked you to purge me and help me grow a deeper, more meaningful relationship with You. Are you really asking me to purge my library? Facebook doesn't take that much of my time does it? I deserve to be bitter about....... don't I? Well, my husband upset me so I deserve to go shopping and spend more money then necessary.
I wanted to be shown areas that could be clouding my walk with you but can't it wait until I start getting full nights of sleep again and the mad rush of christmas is over so I can F.O.C.U.S?
"My child, thats exactly what I am asking you to do, is, FOCUS.
Focus on what will bring me glory! Do the books in your library draw you closer to Me? Doesn't facebook take too much time away from your children and quiet time with Me? Can you not see that bitterness is eating you like a cancer?
FOCUS, my child, FOCUS!!!!!!
Okay Lord, I am slow, but I am getting it! All this that you are asking of me will purge me and draw me closer to you.
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This process has NOT been easy but I am finally getting it and while it is painful to go through these things I am also so excited to see where God is going to take me and our marriage.
No, I dont feel like Facebook is wrong but I have definitely been spending too much time on it.
Shopping is something I will always love but hopefully never again abuse the privilege by "taking it out on my husband".
So starting now, and fresh in the year 2012, I intend to FOCUS.
Friday, December 16, 2011
Thursday, December 1, 2011
I love you, mommy.
I never thought of those 4 words as convicting words but yesterday they were. They are supposed to chase warm circles around a mommys heart, especially when they are said 4 or 5 times in a day, completely voluntarily.
I was having ONE.OF.THOSE.DAYS! All 3 of the boys came down with hand, foot and mouth disease. They picked it up from some of our friends children that innocently brought their younguns to a gathering, not knowing thats what it was. Anyway, its terrible stuff!
I was trying to get Ryan caught up on his school work and poor little Jeremy is covered in sores and can hardly crawl for hurting so bad and Matthew has the post-sickness naughtiness and, and, and.........
NO excuse is ever good enough to yell at your children. Yelling is something akin to abuse in my mind and I do not want to stoop that low! Well yesterday I got caught in the moment and lashed out at the boys.
I immediately gathered them together on the floor and and apologized and explained to them that mommy does not want to ever do that again, Children are sooo forgiving. They wrapped their little arms around my neck and said its ok mama.
The day went on somewhat uneventful and I was working on supper preparations in the kitchen when Matthew comes running through the kitchen on his way to the bathroom, never missing a beat, hollers out, "I love you, mommy" and that happened 2 or 3 more times!
WOW. Those words never hit me so hard. So, yes, the saying is true; "A little child shall lead them." That may be taken out of its context but it applies to this situation for me!
I think we can learn sooo much from our children, in the area of forgiveness and unconditional love.
This little man has NO idea that his 4 little words "I love you, mommy" stirred up so many things inside of me yesterday!
I was having ONE.OF.THOSE.DAYS! All 3 of the boys came down with hand, foot and mouth disease. They picked it up from some of our friends children that innocently brought their younguns to a gathering, not knowing thats what it was. Anyway, its terrible stuff!
I was trying to get Ryan caught up on his school work and poor little Jeremy is covered in sores and can hardly crawl for hurting so bad and Matthew has the post-sickness naughtiness and, and, and.........
NO excuse is ever good enough to yell at your children. Yelling is something akin to abuse in my mind and I do not want to stoop that low! Well yesterday I got caught in the moment and lashed out at the boys.
I immediately gathered them together on the floor and and apologized and explained to them that mommy does not want to ever do that again, Children are sooo forgiving. They wrapped their little arms around my neck and said its ok mama.
The day went on somewhat uneventful and I was working on supper preparations in the kitchen when Matthew comes running through the kitchen on his way to the bathroom, never missing a beat, hollers out, "I love you, mommy" and that happened 2 or 3 more times!
WOW. Those words never hit me so hard. So, yes, the saying is true; "A little child shall lead them." That may be taken out of its context but it applies to this situation for me!
I think we can learn sooo much from our children, in the area of forgiveness and unconditional love.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Sneak Peek.....
I have tossed around the idea for quite some time about starting a blog, but I always felt so inadequate compared to other bloggers that I follow. I am not a photographer, writer or a crafty person so why would people want to hear from me??? Well, with a little prompting and a LOT of help from my nieces, setting up my blog, etc. I decided to bite the bullet. My main focus will be on adoption and our journey. I want the world to know that adoption is a beautiful thing and Birth Mothers are amazing people. So to start out I just wanted to give you a sneak peek of our family.
Matthew
Jeremy
My Prince Charming & I
Ryan
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